Prayer ~ I Have No Idea Where I Am Going

“My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think that I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always
though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. ”

~ Thomas Merton

Trust (IV)

You can do it –
You can get your shoe on
by yourself;
You can go down the steps
on your own;
You can find it
without help;
You can jump
and land on your feet.
I have faith in you.

I can do it –
I can say I’m sorry
when I yell;
I can start the day over
when I am too cranky to smile;
I can let go of my agenda
when I find selflessness;
I can stop
and look for the biggest picture.
God has faith in me.

Trust (III)

Before her head hits the pillow,
she laments, “I can’t sleep;”
and so the littler one joins her,
“I. Can’t. Sleeeeeep,” she says as she falls
sideways on her bed.
I listen to myself whisper,
“Sleep will come to you.
Sleep will come to you; it just takes practice.”
I say it many times in a row and wonder if it’s true;
I say it many times in a row and take heart in it.
“It’s okay; sleep will come.”

Finally, they pull blankets over their shoulders,
their bodies warm up, eyes close.
Sleep has come whispering, “Surprise
surprise, it just takes practice
and letting go.”

All at once I think about Grace
and the discipline of letting go
and letting go
and letting go
whispers Grace,

It’s okay, Spirit whispers, Grace will come to you.